THE desert and what we tend to think of as spirituality are not
necessarily natural companions. The desert has in modern times,
indeed, been conspicuous as a battlefield, where solitude and
silence can scarcely have priority - a place as far as it is
possible to get from the atmosphere of an Anglican retreat house
during Lent. Anyone who thinks of the North African campaign and El
Alamein, the Sinai desert in 1967, Operation Desert Storm in 1991,
or the Shiite Muslim soldiers recently photographed training in the
Iraqi desert to do battle with Islamic State, is imagining a place
that is harsh and inhospitable, even if not, at a given moment,
bloodstained.
T. E. Lawrence's description of the desert as driving men back
upon God but also hardening their hearts was coloured by the
Orientalism of his day. But the daily flow of grim reports and
images from the Middle East makes it chillingly resonant: "Those
who went into the desert long enough to forget its open spaces and
its emptiness were inevitably thrust upon God as the only refuge
and rhythm of being. . . His [the desert dweller's] sterile
experience perverts his human kindness to the image of the waste in
which he hides." Here is a place where the ultimate questions of
life are to the fore, and yet the heart may become a stone.
The witness of the Christian faith is that Jesus enters the
desert, but his heart does not become a stone. It is the place
where he prepares for a destiny that is unique in its potential to
correct the violence in human nature. The struggle in which he
engages there - and for him the desert is a solitary
place, where his trial comes without the distraction of human
company - is the necessary prelude to his silence in Pilate's
crowded judgment hall, where Isaiah's prophecy is fulfilled: "He
was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was
led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before its
shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth."
At some point, every follower of Jesus has to find something of
that silence in order to find reality on the road towards Easter
and the resurrection. Perhaps it will be on a Lenten retreat; or
perhaps it will be snatched at the last minute before going to
confession, or found at last on Maundy Thursday evening or Good
Friday afternoon. Most people cannot be silent, or solitary, for
long; and it is a full-time vocation for very few. But it is more
than a necessary, if brief, escape from distractions so that grace
can begin its work. It is also the most that many of us will be
able to do for the many men, women, and children who have been, or
will be, or fear being, silenced brutally for their faith. It does
not matter which faith. If, kneeling silently during Lent this
year, we try to bring them to mind before the Christ of the
judgment hall, with his heart of flesh, he will not want us to
distinguish as he beholds his lambs.