WHAT impressed me, as I
listened to a group of 35 young-to-middle-aged participants in a
secular mindfulness-based stress-reduction course, was the
spiritual growth that they experienced and articulated.
We met over a term to
practise meditation in different postures and for different lengths
of time, which we committed ourselves to using twice a day between
the weekly sessions. When we came together, we shared the insights
that these brought us - as well as the boredom, frustration, and
sheer panic at the idea of finding time for this in our demanding
lives.
We discovered what we
discover if we do nothing but a simple task such as examining and
eating one raisin for four minutes, or what it is like to pay
attention to our physical sensations for 40 minutes.
These exercises had no
explicit religious content - or, one might say, they had a
fundamental religious content, because they affirmed that the
present moment and our awareness of it was worthy of our full
attention. They also encouraged unknowing, so that the attention we
paid to ourselves was neither narcissistic nor judgemental, but
simply attentive and committed. It was, for those who wished to see
it in such a way, an effort to see ourselves as God sees us, with
an agenda that was basically friendly. For many in the group, it
became a revelation of what I would call a spiritual way of life. A
few with past religious affiliations spoke of wanting to revisit
this aspect of their lives.
It may not have been clear
to them why attending to reality by focusing their attention on
their toes or their breathing should change their characters, but
most of them said that they had changed decisively by the end of
the course. They spoke of being nicer, kinder, more patient, having
more gentleness, and more self-control. Two spoke of being
surprised by joy, in what some would call a unitive experience.
I had participated in the
group as a priest committed to contemplative prayer and a
Benedictine rule of life. I had hoped to find a method by which I
could free my prayer and my actions and reactions from habitual
preoccupations - to have at least a sporting chance of making my
relationship with God, time, and the created world a loving
one.
With mindfulness, I can find
calm when I might fall into frustration or fright. Or, at the very
least, I have a clearer awareness that I am falling. This is how I
interpret St Benedict's conversio - the daily, hourly need
for all of us to choose God's reality actively rather than to be
"scattered in the imagination of our hearts" - which is the worst
punishment that Mary can imagine for God's enemies, and the
condition from which I attempt, most of the time, to do my priestly
work.
The Revd Terence Handley
MacMath is an NHS chaplain, and a teacher of mindfulness in
Christian and secular settings.