PROFOUND anxiety lies hidden
behind every door in the parish. There are myriad causes. It may
spring from clinical depression or recent bereavement. Health
problems and financial insecurity can notch it up to unbearable
levels. Guilt exacerbates it, and domestic worries run through the
days like a dark thread.
For some, it is a spiritual
emptiness, an existential angst. Fate has thrown us into the world
and abandoned us. That is partly why we have become a nation of
pill-takers. It is not a new phenomenon. Christ exhorted his
followers to overcome anxiety by reflecting on the serenity of
ravens and lilies.
Paul Tillich (1885-1965),
anti-Nazi, celebrated philosopher, and theologian, unearthed the
deeper causes lying behind anxiety in his book The Courage to
Be (1952). The primal root of our unrest is the fear of
non-being, our awareness that the day of death will inexorably
dawn.
The Church teaches eternal
life, but nagging doubt still remains, if we are honest. It cannot
be empirically proved, and few have an unswerving, rock-like faith
in a post-worldly existence.
No less disturbing is our
sense of the meaninglessness of life. Everyone has experienced
those dismal days when questions fly around, unanswered and
unanswerable. Why are we here? Is life devoid of purpose? Does God
exist, or is it all hogwash?
We can paper over the
uncertainties with alcohol, drugs, formal religion, busyness, or
socialising, but that unsettling voice will inevitably break
through, telling us that life is empty and futile.
Our own moral and spiritual
shortfall is another trigger for unease and anxiety. We set
ourselves standards and goals, and the daily unfolding of events
causes us to fail; despair creeps close.
Brooding malignly over it
all and heightening our worry is the world's darkness; wars and the
fearful uncertainty about what their outcome may be; world
overpopulation or ecological meltdown, and how it will affect our
children and grandchildren; the obscene depths of depravity to
which humans can fall. Read the newspapers to discover all
this.
They paint a bleak picture,
but Paul Tillich puts forward a new way of coping, a fresh insight
about how we can take on board the weight of anxiety, and still win
through. "Being religious means asking passionately the question of
the meaning of our existence, and being willing to receive answers,
even if the answers hurt," he maintains.
Ultimately, this implies
that we have to accept that nothing is certain, and often there are
no answers. This is tough. It appears that we have reached a
spiritual cul-de-sac, an all-time low.
Then comes a flash of light
in the darkness, a reassurance that all is not lost; that we can
inject renewed hope, and a refurbished meaning into existence. We
do this by continuing to believe, in spite of doubt, by clinging on
and choosing not to give way to despair, come what may. If we go
through life affirming the courage to be, we will find ourselves
grasped and held safe above the abyss of despair.
This is the point at which
we encounter the one who lives beyond all that we can know or
comprehend, the Holiness hidden in light inaccessible. In Tillich's
thought-provoking words: "The name of this inexhaustible depth and
ground of all being is God." So, take heart.
The Revd David Bryant is a retired priest in
Yorkshire.