THE actor Larry Hagman died
last month, leaving fans of the soap opera Dallas with a
void, and the Christian Enquiry Agency with a problem. The Agency
is gearing up for a 2013 campaign that encourages people who have
never read the words of Jesus for themselves to find out what the
controversy is about. Drawing attention to Jesus's claim that his
purpose was "to bring life in all its fullness", it will feature
postcards, posters, and advertisements in cinema foyers. Through
the website christianity.org.uk, anyone can ask to be sent
a Gospel, free of charge.
Hagman, however, may have
derailed the campaign with his final words, which his family report
as: "I've lived life to the full." The excesses he was talking
about were a liver-transplant-inducing appetite for alcohol, a
turbulent emotional life, hallucinogenic drugs, and a penchant for
fancy dress. Behaviour such as this gives fullness of life a bad
name.
The British Heart Foundation
has conducted a survey of people who are nearing the close of their
lives, asking what they most regret. Of those polled, 58 per cent
confessed that disappointment over an important choice hindered
their life, leaving them in the wrong career or the wrong
relationship; and 27 per cent identified fear of failure as their
biggest impediment - almost as many as those who blamed lack of
finance. The most recurrent regret was not having travelled
more.
Regrets about maintaining
unhealthy habits until it was too late dominated the top ten. The
11 per cent of men who lamented not sleeping with more women were
outnumbered by those who regretted losing touch with friends.
The National Theatre is
currently presenting Damned by Despair, a play from 1625
by the Spanish monk Tirso de Molina (Comment, 24 August; Arts, 19
October). It is rare for this flagship theatre to present an
explicitly Christian drama, and it has not been well received -
perhaps because audiences find its Christian polemic baffling.
In the play, we see a
Neapolitan gangster, Enrico, fill his life with ruthless greed and
swaggering murder. Faced with death, and melted by the love of his
father, however, he repents on the gallows and is carried to
paradise.
The middle-aged couple I was
sitting next to enjoyed it less than I did, and protested that the
apparent injustice of the ending was a terrible moral to put in
front of the school parties in the cheap seats. I explained as best
I could the concept of God's grace, which means that even the worst
of us can be redeemed. Unaware that this is central to Christian
faith, but a firm believer in the efficacy of punishment, the man
spluttered: "It's all this forgiveness of wrong that's emptying the
churches."
I hope that I have a decade
or two before I need to ask myself about the regrets that I no
longer have time to amend. But I genuinely do not think it will be
any of the items on the British Heart Foundation list. Damned
by Despair has left me with one serious desire that relates to
a fulfilled life: I hope that I will not be overtaken by regret
about the people I have not forgiven.
I am aware that addressing
this is in my own hands. As Jim Elliot, the martyred missionary to
the Waodani people of Ecuador, said: "When it comes time to die,
make sure that all you have to do is die."
Peter Graystone develops pioneer mission projects for the
Church Army.