SOMEBODY has sent me Cerrini's
Head of Goliath, on a postcard from Rome. The giant-killer
is beautiful, and the head is appalling. A shepherd's sling and the
giant's sword lie on the ground. David looks up to heaven, and poor
Goliath to the earth. I say poor Goliath, because he has always
seemed to me someone who is too tall for his own good.
And yet he was only about
six-and-a-half feet tall. Judging by the size of his head, he would
have had to be at least 20 feet in his sandals. He came from Gath,
the home of another big man, Samson. Immediately after David's
slaughter of Goliath, with a pebble from the brook, Prince Jonathan
met David, and fell in love with him. The shepherd lad, being the
greatest poet in the Bible, was able to cure Jonathan's father of
his fits of depression.
The books of Samuel and Kings were
Thomas Hardy's favourite reading. They contained his most loved
words: "But the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an
earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake: and after the
earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the
fire a still small voice."
They are on his memorial window in
Stinsford Church. Or, if you read the New English: "And after the
fire a low murmuring sound", which is not quite right, and makes
one think of inarticulate noise in E. M. Forster's cave. You see
how one's mind wanders.
Meanwhile, the November morning
smiles. All the ash leaves have fallen down, but the oak leaves
will hang on until Christmas. White gulls are black in the
distance. People call. The white cat ignores them. Bird feeders
hang from the old rose, and are obscured by blue tits and
chaffinches. I write the Remembrance Day service, then clear up the
tumbling willow.
I think of my friend Richard Birt, in
far-off Hereford, who, to my mind, has done more to bring Thomas
Traherne back into mind than anyone else. In fact, my head goes
here and there, as is its wont, being governed by words.
Visitors gather sloes. What a
sensation they were when we were children, as we gathered up our
daring palette. "Where do you pick your sloes?" We would pass a
needle through them, and drown them in gin. The first taste lasts a
lifetime for country people.
Snowy gliders pass silently over the
house. Americans holler and shout on the radio. I pray for poor
dear New York, and all the drowned East Coast. I remember the
London plane trees in Manhattan Central Park, and the way their
leaves bowled along the sidewalk, and now lie in sodden masses. It
is unutterably sad. I suppose that most American men are taller
than Goliath.
But I must cease this drifting, and
pull my mind together. Searching for something else, a postcard of
Rupert Brooke's grave in Skyros tumbles from a book. To the early
hero-seekers of the First World War, he was a David. His body lies
under massive protection. Stone and iron keep it out of reach. A
mosquito killed him on the way to the Dardanelles, where, at that
moment, my teenage father was also sailing, but in another troop
ship.
Poor straws! on
the dark flood we catch awhile,
Cling, and are born into the night apart.