"I AM the product of long cor-ridors," he wrote, "empty sunlit
rooms, upstairs indoor silences, attics explored in solitude,
distant noises of gurgling cisterns and pipes. . . . Also, of
endless books."
We approach the anniversary of the death of Clive Staples Lewis.
He died on 22 November 1963, but his passing was largely unnoticed,
as he shared the day with the assassination of J. F. Kennedy. The
world stopped for the shot President; but a more intriguing man had
died that day in Oxford.
In many ways, England was never home for this Belfast Protestant
who, on arrival, in his words, "conceived a hatred for England
which took many years to heal". He always sought Irish company, and
"like all Irish people who meet in England, we ended by criticisms
on the invincible flippancy and dullness of the Anglo-Saxon race.
After all, there is no doubt, ami, that the Irish are the
only people: with all their faults, I would not gladly live or die
among another folk."
Some have suggested, however, that it was his despair of
sectarian strife in Belfast which created a passion for unity among
Christians around what the Roman Catholic writer G. K. Chesterton
called "mere Christianity" - core doctrinal beliefs that all
denominations could share.
But religion came late to Lewis; after becoming an atheist at
the age of 15, he immersed himself fully in pagan mythology. As a
19-year-old, he experienced trench warfare on the Somme, and agreed
with Lucretius: "Had God designed the world, it would not be a
world so frail and faulty as we see."
His adoption of Christianity, influenced both by Tolkien and by
Chesterton's The Everlasting Man, is famously recorded in
Surprised by Joy: "You must picture me alone in that room
in Magdalen, night after night, feeling . . . the steady,
unrelenting approach of Him whom I so earnestly desired not to
meet. That which I greatly feared had at last come upon me. In the
Trinity Term of 1929 I gave in, and admitted that God was God and
knelt and prayed: perhaps, that night, the most dejected and
reluctant convert in all England."
He became a famous Christian apologist, but, in 1960, wrote with
a different voice after the death of his wife, Joy Davidman - a
relationship that had developed from intellectual friendship to
passionate commitment. Such was the savagery and rage of A
Grief Observed that it was published under the pseudonym N. W.
Clerk for fear of offence. It was a hatchet job on everything he
had previously written, although, for some Christians, it is their
favourite Lewis of all.
No plastic saint, young Clive lost his mother when young, knew
only a distant father, and lived in a land never quite his own.
But, in such exile, what homecomings he described.
Simon Parke is the author of Pippa's Progress (DLT, 2012).