NOT far from the Suffolk coast there
stands the fragment of an Augustinian priory, on whose walls hang
36 stone shields, which, hundreds of years ago, were full of
knightly information. But rains and winds, and burning suns, have
erased it, so that they are left as a tabula rasa, or "the
mind in its uninformed original state", as the philosopher John
Locke would have said. Or as a lesson to us all, as Julian of
Norwich would have added.
Near by lies an oyster-bed. Across the
road there is a dying forest, which never dies, in which a woman
who had been Queen of France, and her second husband, the Duke of
Suffolk, had a picnic. This forest is where oaks and hollies in
terminal decay hang on to each other in everlasting life. It is so
quiet that you can hear a dying leaf drop. But now and then a gaudy
pheasant will kick up a din.
I used to take all my friends there -
John Nash, Richard Maby, and James Turner. John used to say that he
"liked the dead tree in the landscape". And he sat drawing in this
not-quite-dead wood for hours, while I wandered about, ducking the
liana-like ivies that fell from on high, sloshing my feet through
the skeletal leaves that filled the ruts, and listening hard for
perhaps a nightingale. It was dreadful how the trees mounted one
another, and strange how, in what seemed their last moments, they
reached for the sky.
A few yards along the lane, and
equally dark, stood another forest, one of rigid conifers, all
standing to attention, through which the north wind whistled and
the squirrels swung. St Edmund - England's Sebastian, it is
rumoured - received temporary burial here. But who can say? My head
is often an old picture-book with its backing gone and its pages
dangling. So take no notice. Each one of us knows a few truths
about our home ground - and a great many fancies.
When I was in Australia, my heart sank
at the lighting of the barbecue; for the mighty feast of burnt
steak, sausages, beer, and bread would take many hours. I thought
of the ducal lovers, lying here on the then rich grass, eating
cakes, and listening to lutes and birds, and the oaks and hollies
standing quiet, and the sun having room to blaze. And the great
armorial on the priory being a great read, and fully coloured. And
the seagulls sailing about.
And King Henry VIII, the Duchess's
brother, full of rage in London; for she had no right to marry her
beloved Duke without his permission - she who had been Queen of
France. What could Henry do? How dare they present him with a fait
accompli? So he sentenced them to stay in Suffolk for ever.
I like to look at the Duchess's tomb
when I am in Bury St Edmunds. It is tucked into a corner of St
Mary's, and, unlike the armorial of the knights, it is wonderfully
readable still. Once, when the tomb was being mended, they found
hanks of Tudor-red hair. And this lady somehow makes me think of
Queen Esther and the Grand Vizier Haman, although they do not share
the faintest resemblance. You see how unreliable and fanciful I
am.
We could go to the picnic place this
afternoon. Why not?